Summers Camp

a tale to tell, sans raven

2011-10-31T21:08:00.000-07:00


Introducing: the toothless vampire, an angry townsman, and the witch with her little black cat :)

The story of our costumes follows thusly: Will did NOT want to be a carrot, or anything that other people would laugh at... Without any prodding from his mother, he decided on being a vampire this Halloween. I gladly accepted such a classic request, and then planned the rest of our costumes accordingly. A day before Halloween, Will lost his top tooth. On the night of Halloween, he lost the other one. True story, with blood and all! A Happy Halloween indeed. *B

FINALLY

2011-10-18T08:21:00.000-07:00

Yup, it really is true! This guy of mine has passed the AZ Bar :) Please, don't ask us what our plans are... We're too busy celebrating this great culmination of the past five years to worry about the next five! Yup, I'm mostly joking. But seriously, don't ask. Because we don't really know. We're (still) just happy we've made it this far! *B

bump

2011-10-06T10:27:00.000-07:00

14 weeks :)

Yes, we are absolutely thrilled! Also, apprehensive.
But mostly, we're just thankful. *B

an ode to order

2011-09-21T21:52:00.000-07:00

Turns out another month has ~~gone~~ flown by. Crazzzy! So, I hardly know what to write nowadays... It's like I've got serious writer's block. Or else, my kids have destroyed my brain. Both are entirely possible. But, things are good :) I've had homesteading on my mind lately. A lot. No, we haven't up and left our little condo for a huge plantation. We're still here, and I'm still making my house my home. It will never matter where we live, or what house we're in, because I'll make it mine just the same. It's what I do.

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So, I'm really into this homestead revival. Yes, we really did have real live chicks in our house. We now have an adolescent hen, who lives at my cousin's with her hens. And hopefully one day we will have a few eggs from our then grown-up hen! I may not have a farm, or a backyard, but I can still do my part to be more self sufficient. Oh, how I dream of the day when we own a handful of chickens, a cow, a couple of pigs, and a few goats. Bliss. And don't even get me started on my dream garden! Double bliss. One day! But for now, I do what I can. Like pawn off fowl to my cousin, and mooch mulch from friends to start a small container garden on our back patio. It's not a lot, but it's a start.

I've recently had the strong impression to "get my house in order" and to prepare. Don't ask me what I'm preparing for, or when I'll need to be prepared, but I feel like I should be "anxiously engaged" and do what I can. Yes, I am literally getting my house in order. Every night I do a load of laundry, and every day I clean a designated zone. But, it's more than that. We're watching less TV, and we're playing less video games. We're reading more scriptures, and we're listening to more hymns. And I've finally started to think/plan about food storage, and emergency preparedness. Whether or not something will happen, I feel that all of this preparing is mostly for my own good.

My life is in order, and my life is good. *B

firstborn in the firstgrade

2011-08-22T02:59:00.000-07:00

Let's pretend I'm not in the picture... or at least pretend that I look hot. Where did my kids get all their good looks from??? They're so dang cute! And big. *B

partyin' fun fun, yeah

2011-08-09T20:06:00.000-07:00

Can you believe school starts tomorrow? Which means we survived the Summer!!! A couple of weeks ago, the kids and I headed out to WA for some good ol' R&R with the Summers' clan, while Brad stayed behind and studied/took the Bar (no worries, he joined us for the family reunion after it was over). We all had a blast! It was nice to escape from the heat, and the kids were outdoor junkies. Seriously, I barely saw them. Will tagged alongside his cousins the entire time, doing who knows what... While Elsie got into just about everything (including dirt, fertilizer, baking soda, dog food and mud puddles). There were animals to hug, fish to fish, weeds to pull, rivers to float, mountains to hike, wood to burn and rocks to climb. And let's not forget the trampoline, zip line, pedal carts, tractor and water slide. Those kids wore themselves silly! As for the adults, we rafted, we hiked, we karaoked, we played games and we chatted. I helped sew up some pillows and a window treatment, and was also able to squeeze in lots of water aerobics. I even found an awesome yoga studio. I have now "mastered" the crow pose! Other fun included blind makeup artists, cardboard cars at the "drive" in, and a talent show-off. And we all got super sick... But we're better now, and we're home safe and sound. And sweaty ;)

Bring on the Fall! *B

public service announcement II

2011-07-12T22:40:00.000-07:00

Just thought you should know that I am NOT pregnant. I've gotten a few erroneous congratulatory emails... they're mostly funny, and leave me wanting to both cry and do more sit-ups! It's been a while (seven months), but still not nearly as long as some. Who am I to complain? I have so much to be grateful for! And I am grateful. But, my heart is ready for more. My tummy begs for internal tickling and my arms ache for external wiggling. It's all I can think about. And still I wait. *B

picture planning

2011-06-14T19:53:00.000-07:00

Please tell me I'm not the only one who does this...

I'll try my best to show you the actual wall once the photos are edited, printed and hung! *B

my lil' elder

2011-06-13T20:47:00.000-07:00

My baby brother has been out serving the Lord for a few months now. I ~~kinda~~ really miss him. Sometimes I forget he's gone, until I think about calling/texting him something totally random/hilarious. You see, he's my buddy. But over these past few months, it's become apparent that he's so much more. He is one amazing missionary, a faithful servant. So many times I read his weekly emails in awe. Where did my little brother go? Who is this... man?

Most Sunday nights it's a rush to hurry and write something before I hop in bed. Because if I don't, he ruthlessly chastises me the next day for forgetting him. But every Monday, I'm blessed with yet another jewel and am once again surprised at his... wisdom. And so many times while reading his letters, I get this feeling like everyone should have the privilege of reading his words. So I'm going to stop being the selfish sister, and I'm going to share my brother with you. Because we're all children of the same Father, and everyone needs a little brotherly correspondence ;)

Dear awesome family and pretty cool friends,

Another week has come and gone. Wow. How often do I say that?? [...]

Friday we helped a member move into her home over from England. It took a couple hours, but we finally got everything unloaded. Afterwards, the movers tried to give the three of us a 50 dollar bill in payment for doing their work. We turned it down and you could just see the confusement on their face. After all, how many teenage boys would turn that down? It goes to show that the world isn't the same as it use to be. Many people still provide service of course, but you see more and more of people expecting payment for their services now. I'm glad that I have these two years to serve anyone around me.

This goes on to something I was thinking about recently. King Benjamin spoke about how we are unprofitable servants.

Mosiah 2:21,23-24"...I say, if ye should serve him with all your whole souls yet ye would be unprofitable servants...And now, in the first place, he hath created you, and granted unto you your lives, for which ye are indebted unto him...And secondly, he doth require that ye should do as he hath commanded you; for which if ye do, he doth immediately bless you; and therefore he hath paid you. And ye are still indebted unto him, and are, and will be, forever and ever; therefore, of what have ye to boast?"

Some people think about going on a mission to repay the Lord, but in return, we just get more blessings. It is a great blessing to be in the service of our Lord, and no matter how much we do for Him, He always gives us more in return. We don't really have reason to boast because all we have has been given to us from Heavenly Father. We can't make up for everything, but we can do our best and thank Him for everything else.

We had a fireside last night that was for the youth in one of the wards. Unknowingly, we were called to go up and share what we did to prepare for our mission. I thought of two things. 1) Preparing to do things on my own. Like cooking (not just ramen and macaroni, but real food), cleaning and doing laundry. Being away from home for a few months before my mission really helped a lot. 2) Immersing myself in the scriptures and making the Book of Mormon a part of my everyday life. The Book of Mormon was the biggest thing that helped me. Even though I do not understand everything in the church, because of my testimony of the Book of Mormon, everything else falls in line. By reading it everyday, we can all be uplifted and guided.

One last thought before I have to go. This one comes from Elder Dallin H. Oaks

"[A person may have] a strong desire to be led by the spirit of the Lord but..unwisely extends that desire to the point of wanting to be led in all things. A desire to be led by the Lord is a strength, but it needs to be accompanied by an understanding that our Heavenly Father leaves many decisions for our personal choices. Personal decision making is one of the sources of the growth we are meant to experience in mortality. Persons who try to shift all decision making to the Lord and plead for revelation in every choice will soon find circumstances in which they pray for guidance and don't receive it.

"We should study things out in our minds, using the reasoning powers our Creator has placed within us. Then we should pray for guidance and act upon it if we receive it. If we do not receive guidance, we should act upon our best judgment. Persons who persist in seeking revelatory guidance on subjects on which the Lord has not chosen to direct us may concoct an answer out of their own fantasy or bias..."

D&C 6:23 "Did I not speak peace to your mind concerning the matter? What greater witness can you have than from God?"

The Lord gave us common sense for a reason--we are to use it. The Spirit is there to help guide us in making decisions and will not allow us to continue in the wrong decisions without making it known unto us. It is up to us to listen to those promptings and act upon them. I know this church is true and that the Spirit with the Book of Mormon are the key to being converted to the gospel. It is the path to Eternal Happiness. The way back to our Father in Heaven. I love you all and hope you have an amazing week!!

Love,
Elder Borgia

random

2011-06-07T21:34:00.000-07:00

On my mind lately:

I like to end my day in a house whose floors are picked up and whose dishes are done. I realize it will not, and does not, stay in this "clean" state throughout the day. But, I'm ok with that. As long as it's "clean" when I go to bed, I'm good.
If/when we have another kid, I hope it's a girl. Mostly because I want her to share a room with Elsie. And because the family of Dick & Jane fame had an older brother with two younger sisters :)
It doesn't matter how short/long you've been trying for a baby. If no baby comes, it hurts the same.
Husband is taking the Bar. Again. I am a single mother. Again.
I'm getting the itch to move. Mostly because we're used to moving every couple of years...
I'm getting ready to take the GRE. Yikes.
It has been two years since we (yes, we) graduated from law school. In another year, we will have been career-less for as long as we were in law school.
I have no idea how we make ends meet, but we do. Thank God.
I love my son dearly. But sometimes he reminds me of a little brother, and therefore drives me crazy!
I wish I was a cowgirl.
I sorta love Arizona now. Weird.
I want to drown in fabric. I want to have my bed sheets over my head, wear nothing but huge clothes and do nothing but sew quilts.
I really want a nice camera. I think I'm the only one with a standard point-and-shoot.
Apparently I could get away with calling myself a nutritionist, at least in the state of AZ. But, I've decided to call myself a lifestyle coach.
I feel broken, and punished. I know I'm not, but that's how I feel. Maybe if I didn't yell so much...
I wish I smiled/laughed more.

And I'm sure there's more where that came from! *B

wannabe country chic

2011-05-20T13:29:00.000-07:00

So, I have a confession to make. I am no longer obsessed with craft blogs. Crazy, right? I know! But, it's true. So very true. First off, I don't have the time/money/space for crafting, let alone reading about it... And secondly, I just don't care anymore. I feel like I've entered a new chapter in my life. Rather than flying high with all the craftistas, I'd rather be getting down and dirty. As in, I want to plant a (potager) garden and live off of the land. I want to get back to my roots... Nowadays I am obsessed with the homestead revival. I want to live on a farm, not in a boutique. I want to make homemade yogurt and can peaches, not monster cookies or robot popsicles. And I want to raise chickens, not divas.

Meet Ginger and Rosemary! Such clever, cheeky names for such cute chickies ;)

"The Homestead Revival™ Mission: is a challenge for readers to get back to the basics of living closer to the land through homesteading, strengthening the family through homemaking, and building community through sharing [...] to inspire women to joyfully embrace being a keeper of the home and educate the next generation in homesteading skills while encouraging them to adopt these principles as their own."

Never has any other mission statement resonated with me so strongly. I can feel it deep within my bones, and I believe in it with all my soul. It has shaken me to my core and I can feel of its influence in my every thought and action. This is my home and I intend to keep it and make it what it should be. And it is here where I find joy. *B

picture perfect II

2011-05-09T20:31:00.000-07:00

We went to Prescott, again. It is always such a treat... We just love them Nelsons!

And I just love my family! And rustic red backdrops. *B

live-action

2011-04-26T20:09:00.000-07:00

For family and/or friends who want to see what we look (and sound) like in real life, early in the AM and sans showers (etc).

Happy Easter indeed. *B

the birthday girl

2011-04-02T08:42:00.000-07:00

My sweet stinker of a ~~baby~~ little girl turned two last month. My, how time flies! I'm sure it's because she's so fun :) Miss Elsie Rae makes everyone, and I mean every single person who has ever had the pleasure of meeting her, smile. And she has since day one. *B

public service announcement

2011-04-02T07:04:00.000-07:00

I am pregnant. But, I am currently in the process of losing it (again). I figured y'all should know, since my coworkers do (thanks Dad). How do I feel? Exhausted. Fat. Moody. Achy. Hungry. Sick. In a word: pregnant. Yeah, lots of fun. And in case you can't tell, that's me being sarcastic. *B

my not-so-little leprechauns

2011-03-21T21:36:00.000-07:00

Happy belated St. Paddy y'all :) My kids have blue eyes, not green. Festive irises, perhaps? And can you believe this is the same girl?! She's much cuter, and looks less like a baby bird and more like a "baby" girl. She's also much louder, and a lot more fun/frustrating. And she can still clear a room with her toots... Anyway, I can't believe March is almost over! Also, my babies are not really babies anymore. *B

screenshot II

2011-03-07T20:43:00.000-08:00

I was informed early this morning that this week will be a busy one...
I guess I'd better finish sanding that beadboard! *B

moving mountains

2011-03-04T08:05:00.000-08:00

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I haven't wanted to say anything, in fear of jinxing it... But I believe I have found the secret to successful laundering!!! This is huge my friends, HUGE. And on top of that, I've been making my bed E.V.E.R.Y. A.M. Who is this person??? It's me :) And it feels soooo good!

When my life feels out of control, I have two choices: let my life control me, or take control of my life. While wallowing in self pity/loathing, I would despondently stare at my ~~piles~~ mountain of laundry. I already felt like a failure, and here was proof: my dirty laundry, a metaphor on so many levels. How ridiculous that my sense of self worth would be tied to a single chore! But I couldn't do anything right, let alone laundry... When you're already down, everything gets you down. Negativity breeds negativity. I can't remember why, or how, but I decided that I had had enough; this dirty laundry needed some air!

I am happiest when my house is clean. It does not sparkle. It is not big. It's quite small, actually. But it is comfortable, and it is home. And it's mine. I am grateful for it. I am blessed to have it. And therefore, I should treat it as the blessing it is and do my part in making it "Heaven on Earth." By keeping my home clean, I am not only inviting the Spirit in, but I am also making sure It's comfortable when It's here. Because I don't want It to leave.

I am happiest when my house is organized. It is not spotless. And there is not a place for everything. Everything is in THIS place. My place. And when my place is orderly on the outside, I feel orderly on the inside. I love going to bed, feeling like I accomplished something great. I am home-maker, hear me roar! My house is my office. My home is my job.

Sure, life is overwhelming at times. And it's (real) easy to make mountains out of mole hills, especially when you've been trudging up the same mole hill for the past two years! But, a chore doesn't have to be a chore. Sure, laundry is a beast... But eating that elephant a bite at a time can bring peace and JOY to my home and heart.

Basically, I've reached the summit and I'm not starving. *B

joy in the journey

2011-02-27T19:52:00.000-08:00

Thanks. Thank you kind strangers. Thank you loving friends. And thank you supportive family. Life is hard. But it's pretty great, too. For the most part, I'm an optimistic person... However, this past month I had had enough. I was bottling up all sorts of frustrations and I just had to let it all out. I'm sorry you had to read it. But I'm glad I wrote it. I immediately felt better, and every day has been better since :)

I know I'm not alone, not the only one to ever struggle, especially now. And I know none of us are alone. Because we have each other. And we have God. We have Jesus Christ. It is the wounded Christ who comes to our rescue. He descended below all and ascended above all so that He can comprehend all. I just need a little faith, and a lot of patience. He has approved of and catered to my challenges so that I can work on both. God help me; I am grateful. *B

versatile me

2011-02-23T08:39:00.000-08:00

Miss Katie from Katie's How To... found me through my feature on I ♥ Naptime, and she is SUPER sweet :) Apparently, I'm versatile and worthy of an award! Which means I should probably post more...

Here are the rules:

1. Thank and link back to the person who gave you the award

2. Answer 10 questions

3. Pass it along to 7 blogs you've recently discovered and enjoy

4. Leave your recipients a note, telling them about the award

And the 10 questions are:

1. Why did you create your blog?

Which one??? I started the Summers Camp blog to keep in touch with family and friends :) Beth's Mess because I (really) love (good) food, and The Stitchy Niche because I adore any/all kinds of stitching.

2. What kind of blogs do you follow?

I follow the blogs of family and friends, and a lot of DIY/crafty blogs.

3. Favorite brand of make-up?

If/when I wear any, Bare Minerals

4. Favorite brand of clothing?

Whatever I can afford ;) But if I were rich, I would buy clothes from Anthropologie, J. Crew and Banana Republic. Yeah, I've got expensive taste...

5. Indispensable make-up product?

Mascara?

6. Favorite color?

RED!!!

7. Favorite perfume?

I like the scents from Gap: Pink, Dream and Grass

8. Favorite movie?

Anything fantasy, because I'm a total nerd... I'd have to say some of my favorites include Stardust and Coraline. And The Nightmare Before Christmas. I like strange.

9. What country would you like to visit and why?

The British Isles. It speaks to my soul.

10. Would you rather forget to put mascara on one eye or forget blush on one side of your face?

Blush, for sure. Because, I don't need any. My cheeks are naturally rosy. True story.

The 7 blogs I'm passing this on to in no particular order:

These Are the Moments

Thanks again, Katie! And thanks to (m)any who continue to read my silly wee blog(s)... Sometimes it's nice to have a voice in the world, no matter how small that voice or part of the world might be. *B

happy

2011-02-14T17:47:00.000-08:00

Sorry for being such a downer... Hope your Vday is dreamy! *B

poor me (a pity post)

2011-02-13T19:38:00.000-08:00

We are struggling. Big time. And I'm ~~tired~~ exhausted. And very frustrated. In short, we are the poorest people I know. Oh, I know there are those who are much poorer. But, I don't know them personally... I honestly don't know anyone poorer than us. And it's hard. Real hard. I don't want to be rich. I just want to stop worrying about tomorrow. I want to be able to pay our bills (on time), and put food on our table. And while I'm whining, let me just say that it's not fair that other people have real jobs/careers and get to live in real houses. Or that only the successful breed success. Why is it that behind every successful business woman there's a successful business man? When is it our turn to be successful, at anything?

Then I start to feel super guilty. Because we really are so blessed. We're not living on the streets. And thanks to our parents and/or the government, we have food on our table and clothes on our back. But it's still not enough... It never is. And I am so very tired of asking. Of wanting. It gets worse: I start to wonder if God really answers our prayers, or if He ever will. I know He hears us. And I know He answers other people's prayers. But lately I wonder why I even bother. Because it's not getting better. It's getting worse. And so I'm tired. I'm tired of the struggling. And I'm tired of being selfish. But I can't help but feel bitter. I just wish it would stop. Or at the very least, I wish I knew that it will stop.

If the only thing I can change is my attitude, then so be it. It'll have to do. *B

check it

2011-02-04T07:46:00.000-08:00

My buddy Kali is having an awesome giveaway on her awesome site! Need I mention she's an awesome photographer ;) Check it out and enter to win! *B

screenshot

2011-02-02T08:15:00.000-08:00

Cute, huh? I think so :) I love "blue" and red together! Such a happy combo. *B

and then

2011-02-01T15:19:00.000-08:00

So, our beadboard is almost done!!! Huzzah people, huzz.ahhhhhhh :) And then half of our kitchen will be somewhat complete. And I've brought back the "dine in, not out" challenge. And I've restashed my Etsy shop! And because I must be insane, I've started a NEW blog! Where I've published my first pattern! And I am now completely exhausted. *B

the more the merrier

2011-01-25T09:47:00.000-08:00

Behold, my other (glorious) Christmas present:

I don't think there's such a thing as too much beadboard... Many (many) thanks to my mother :)
I can't wait 'til it's done! *B

a little late

2011-01-16T19:41:00.000-08:00

Like my new wood floors??? Best present EVER :)

Yeah, we celebrated. *B

washed clean

2011-01-02T20:05:00.000-08:00

"His coming long had been foretold.

Signs would precede His birth.

A Son of God to woman born,

With power to cleanse the earth."

--Boyd K. Packer

Thanks to Elsie for reminding us the reason of the season. *B

a recap sans photos

2010-12-29T19:29:00.000-08:00

in no particular order...

runny noses, ringing ears, etc.
(unfinished) Christmas projects
empty pockets
full hearts
a trip to Leavenworth (aka. winter wonderland)
the death of my beloved grandfather
tooting my own horn (literally)
school drama
Bones marathons
playing hooky
new callings
making/eating cookies
steeping/drinking tea
decorating
designing
shopping
wrapping
cleaning
broken dishwasher
wood floors!!!

Pictures coming in the near future. *B

rest assured

2010-12-28T22:01:00.001-08:00

I am alive. I have not quit you, dear blog. Be back soon. Real soon. *B

thankful much

2010-11-28T19:47:00.000-08:00

Just because the holiday of thanks is over, doesn't mean I can't still be grateful! I love my life, my family, my home, my friends, my body (health/talents), my faith and my God. He has blessed me beyond my comprehension. I may not say it enough, but I will never tire of thanking Him. So thanks, dear Lord, times infinity. *B

super sloth

2010-11-23T09:36:00.000-08:00

While Halloween may be my favorite holiday, November is certainly my favorite month. I am thoroughly enjoying its slower pace. And I refuse to put up ANY Christmas decoration until AFTER Thanksgiving. Instead of using this lovely month to rush from one busy holiday to another, I am spending it lazily. Unfortunately, it's almost over. And I can feel the anxiety creeping in. But hopefully I can put off the holiday hullabaloo for just a couple more days. Because I'm looking forward to my food induced coma, and my cozy couch will miss me soon enough... *B

one year older

2010-11-14T21:15:00.000-08:00

And closer to thirty! Sheesh. But it was a lovely day today :) Complete with an awesome birthday dinner, made by the husband himself! And what's even better is that everyone sat at the table and ate. No whining, no complaining, just eating. And we all finished at the same time! That NEVER happens. Best birthday present ever. My painted kitchen (soon to be bedecked in beadboard!) holds a close second, though.

It's been a good year... But I have a feeling this year will be even better! Here's to 27. *B

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head in the clouds

2010-11-08T21:37:00.000-08:00

Everyone who reads this wee blog is well aware that I'm a daydreamer, right? Because I am. I just want to make that clear. We all know I dream about houses. So much so that it annoys everyone but me. It might seem mildly endearing at first, but before long you'll tune me out. My husband does. And I don't blame him. I do the same thing when he starts rambling about politics...

Other than my dream home, I also fantasize about my dream job. Besides being a mom, of course ;) In high-school, I dreamed of becoming an author. Until some nasty English teacher, whose name I don't even remember, dashed those dreams to pieces. In college, I dreamed of owning a little health-food store. Just like the one in Rexburg. I still dream about that... I'd even love to work the cashiers in large health-food stores, like Sprouts or Whole Foods. I'd love to be the on-call nutrition consultant at those stores, too. Shoot, I'd get a hoot out of handing out samples at Trader Joe's.

But if I were rich, and didn't actually need a job, I would write about (holistic) nutrition. That, my friends, is my dream job. A combination of all of my dreams wrapped into one. And guess what? A few days ago, it came true! Well, kind of... I don't get paid, but I could care less. And it's not for a magazine, but it's a start. A dang good start! And I am so stinkin' excited :) I am the new Cooking Naturally Editor for the Natural Parents Network!!!

Not many people know how granola I really am... I don't go around talking about my crunchy beliefs or ideals. Let me just say that I have a lot in common with the ladies behind NPN, and I am thrilled to be a part of their team! And I get to write about food :) It's perfect for me. Because, I love food (I blame the Italian in me). But more importantly, I love good food. Food that tastes good and is good for you. Not just food that will help you lose/maintain weight. Food that fuels your body, mind and spirit. And that's what I write about! And that's what has me on cloud nine. *B

the rest of the festive

2010-10-31T23:25:00.000-07:00

I've been wondering, as I've been frequently asked, why Halloween is my favorite holiday. I don't like candy. And I do NOT do scary. So what is it about All Hallow's Eve that has me so... enthralled? Part of it is because it's the beginning of Fall, and the holiday season. And I really do enjoy all the creative aspects of it, like costume creating, pumpkin carving, etc. But I think the real reason is because, to me, it's a mystical holiday. I may not like horror, but I do LOVE fantasy. I'm a huge nerd when it comes to magic. I love vampires (pre-Twilight, thank you very much), witches, werewolves, and the Pumpkin King. Basically, I'm a sucker for anything that isn't real. While Christmas definitely has a magical feel to it, it's also a holy holiday. Halloween isn't. It's all about running wild with your imagination... It's dark, twisted, romantic and fantastical. It's my kind of holiday ;)

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!

Love, your fruit & veggies :)

PS- PLEASE excuse my nasty floors, fridge, and unfinished projects in the background. Instead, feast your eyes on this year's costumes ;) This past month has been a blur of awesomeness! I am totally and completely beat. I really threw myself into this holiday this year. It was a blast, and I loved every minute of it, but I'm looking forward to the upcoming month. The month I like to call Bethember! And so, during my bday month, I will completely spoil myself with calm days of planting flowers, and baking yummy muffins. Perhaps a craft here and there, but nothing with a deadline. I will not allow it! And then I will top it all off with stuffing my face. Can't wait :) But, there's nothing keeping me from brainstorming about next year's costumes. *B

something good to eat

2010-10-29T22:40:00.000-07:00

I'm so pleasantly pleased with how these turned out! They're like the epitome of Fall. And I'm definitely in favor of all things Autumn, which obviously and absolutely includes pumpkins ;) Let's pretend it wasn't 90-something degrees today... yeah, I'm just going to lock myself inside my house and bake my day away! I might have to turn the AC down to get further in the mood, though. Silly state. But it sure beats the snow! And my pumpkin muffins beat your pumpkin muffins. *B

recipe found here (yes, I have a food blog... where have you been Raquel?!)

batty for banners

2010-10-28T23:30:00.000-07:00

Fads. I hate them. But some are too good to pass up! Like the current bunting phase. I am all about stringing cute little flags together :) I made one for my kids room a few months ago, out of vintage fabric. Super cute. I'll show you someday... And then I made my Halloween pennant out of burlap. I love it. And I'm excited because I had the awesome foresight to make it double-sided! So, in just a few days I'll be turning that sucker over and it'll be saying/meaning something different. Brilliant! For now, it says SPOOKY but soon it'll say THANKS. Super cute. I'll show you someday...

Anyway, I realize it's a ~~wee bit~~ way too late for anyone to be making a Halloween banner... But, just think of all the festive possibilities! So many holidays, so little time. I am totally going to make one for Christmas/V-day. Can't you just imagine the red beautiful burlap banner (hello alliteration!)?! I'm trying not to hyperventilate, and to enjoy my holidays one at a time... but the ideas are a flowin' fo' sho!

I hurried to make another one for my mom's quilt group... But I didn't hurry too much, because I remembered to take pictures this time! So hopefully between my rambling directions and my crappy photos, you'll get the gist ;)

1. Make a template: my triangles are 6 inches wide at the widest, and 8 inches tall at the tallest. But you can make your triangles whatever size you want. Use template and cut out as many flags as you need. I used a fabric pen and a pair of scissors... but if you're a quilter, and/or you have access to a rotary cutter, mat and gridded ruler, that would definitely be the way to go! Mine was at my mom's, so I did it the old-fashioned way.

2. For this next step, you'll need freezer paper and double sided fusible interfacing. If you're only going to have the pennant be one-sided, then you won't need the interfacing... Oh, and you'll need an iron. Iron a slightly smaller triangle to one side of your flag. Carefully iron your freezer paper to a piece of 8.5 x 11 print paper. Make sure you don't iron the wrong side of the freezer paper! Then, print out your word on the freezer paper side. I used Times New Roman, font size 250 in Word. Make sure to leave plenty of spacing between each letter.

3. Using a craft razor blade, or in my case a utility knife, cut out your letters. A cutting board might come in handy. A Cricut would definitely come in handy. Because doing it by hand is a pain in the butt (and hand)! But definitely worth it :) And this is why you want to have enough space around the letters. You don't want the edges of your stencil to be too thin...

4. Peel off the freezer paper from the print paper. Line up your somewhat-sticky stencil on your flag and iron on. Freezer paper usually has two good ironings in it. If you iron it to print paper (step 2), then you've already used up one good use. So, this isn't a stencil you can take on and off. Position it correctly before ironing it on. Eyeball it, use a ruler, etc. Just make sure you're happy with where it is, or else you'll end up repeating steps 2 AND 3, cursing along the way. Believe me. Been there. Done that. Not recommended ;)

5. Using regular old craft paint, start filling in your stencil directly onto the burlap. Brush from the outside of the stencil to the inside of the stencil. That'll help minimize any leakage around the edges. Also, I put tinfoil behind my flag, just in case any of the paint soaked through the burlap. If you ever plan on washing this (why???), then use paint that's safe to wash. Although, I would NOT recommend washing burlap. What a mess!

6. After the paint is dry, simply peel off the freezer paper and gasp in amazement. It's like magic!

If you plan on making it double-sided, then you'll need to prep your backside flags BEFORE you go any further than step 3. You won't need to iron on interfacing, though. Instead, peel off the paper from your front side flag and then create a little flag/interface sandwich. Iron really well on both sides to make sure the interfacing sticks to both. Then take turns painting each side, being careful that both words read from left to right. When I made mine, I sewed the two sides together. And I forgot about the word-flip issue until it was too late. Unpicking burlap is not fun. And I can only imagine how frustrating it would be after you've basically glued the two sides together with interfacing... so just double check before you make any move that'll be permanent.

Now all that's left is to sew all those little flaggies together! I used double folded bias tape, but you could use ribbon, string, etc. Make sure to leave enough on the ends for hanging purposes. And you're done! I'm sorry if I've made it sound more confusing than it really is... But most of you are more crafty than I am, so I'm sure you'll do just fine :)

There you have it! Now you'll be making up excuses to make banners for every season, holiday, month, day of the week, member of your family, and so on and so forth. And I wouldn't blame you one bit. We can be crazy together. *B

like you haven't already seen this

2010-10-22T07:22:00.000-07:00

This is my current consumer crush. Remember? And my husband almost got it for me! But there were some complications... Silly husband. Anyway, I still want it. BAD. Don't you?! And wouldn't it be super cool if I could get one for free??? Heck yes. Like I ever win anything, ha! *B

on my (mormon) mind

2010-10-20T21:38:00.000-07:00

I have something to ~~say~~ share. And it's not in response to anyone or anything. Really. It's just something I've been thinking about a lot lately... Let me preface by saying that I'm a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. A Mormon. Have been my whole life. And it's been a good life! And I owe that to the gospel :)

The gospel is true. The gospel is perfect. We, as a people, are not perfect. Far from it, actually. We make mistakes, just like anyone else does. Certainly, no one is better than their neighbor. We are all the same. We are brothers and sisters. Our Father and Mother in Heaven, know us and love us. Jesus Christ is our Savior and our Redeemer. Yes, we're Christian! I believe happiness comes through following the commandments. But, we are free to make our own choices. Nonetheless, just as I remind my son every day, we need to make good choices. No one forces us, not even God. And certainly not Lucifer. As free agents, we have sole responsibility of our souls. Through the Atonement, and by the grace of God, our souls can be made perfect. I look forward to that day.

It is not our place to judge others. And for that, I am extremely grateful! That job is God's, and His alone. What a relief! But, we do need to love one another. As (Gay) Mormon Guy puts it: "I used to love people less because they didn't love people as much or as freely as I did. Then I realized how incredibly ironic my feelings were. I was judging the people around me because they were judging others, and refusing to tolerate them because they were intolerant. That sounds like circular logic. I looked inside myself and realized that I, like they, needed to simply love people - even the people who didn't love me or tolerate me and who judged me without context - and help them to make good decisions. But, no matter what choices others eventually made, I still needed to love them."

And that is my goal in this life. To love everyone. My family. My friends. And my enemies. Though I hope to have more friends than foes... Because, I really like people! And I hope they like me, too. Me, the Mormon. *B

happy haunting

2010-10-17T20:00:00.000-07:00

Have I mentioned lately how much I love Halloween? Yes, I probably have... Well, this October has been great! We haven't had to deal with a loss of any kind (baby or house), so I've allowed myself to decorate to my heart's desire and to let myself be really happy. I am truly content, which is such a wonderful feeling.

I look around our cozy little family room and every wall makes me smile. I can't decide what has me grinning the most, but I'm particularly fond of my beadboard wall. Helloooo beadboard! ;)

While I'm not a huge fan of candy/sweets, I am, however, loving my treat-filled apothecary jars. Yay for 50% coupons! The "deadly desserts" sign is just perfect for that space, too. Yay for the dollar store! I am also completely thrilled with how my burlap bunting turned out. More on that later... Yay for tutorials? But, I adore Will's embroidered pillow the most. I couldn't have stitched it better myself! *B

walk to remember

2010-10-16T13:25:00.000-07:00

It's hard to think that three years ago I lost my second baby... Man, that was an awful October! Worst month ever. And as the days continue to run their course, I think less and less of my maybe baby. But I will never forget.

I may not have carried him for long... I don't even know what the baby's sex was. All I do know is that I have my Elizabeth Rae now, and I will never use the name Peter B. for a boy. So I'm going to assume it was a he ;) Anyway, the loss I've experienced is nothing like the losses of relatives and friends I do know. But it's still a loss.

This morning I had the chance to be a part of this (thanks Nicki!). My heart was slightly re-broken... I mourned alongside the other participating families. For bereaved families everywhere. For all the moms who carry a child, only to go home empty handed. And unless you've experienced that emptiness, you don't know what it's like. And for that, I'm grateful. I'm grateful that my heart has been softened so that I can not only sympathize for those mothers, but also empathize with some. I know what it's like to want to be pregnant. I know what it's like to have your arms ache to hold your baby. I know what it's like to feel broken.

I remember, lying there on the exam table, waiting (for hours) for someone to come and tell me what was wrong. And I remember patting my tummy, whispering to my baby, telling him that it'll be ok. That I love him. And that no matter what happens, that will never change. And I remember telling him how sorry I was that he couldn't stay.

Today, I grieved for the baby I never knew. Today, I celebrated my children. My son. And my daughter. Once again, my eyes were opened. To the miracle of life. And to the beauty of eternal families. *B

these faces

2010-10-14T07:33:00.000-07:00

No one drives me crazier than these two. But, no one loves them like I do. *B

make like a bat

2010-10-09T20:20:00.000-07:00

In case you (*cough, cough* Jen) haven't seen it yet, I'm giving away (*sniff, sniff*) this haunting platter you now see before you. I'll be picking the winner on Monday, so fly on over and enter if you so choose. I know I would! I'm simply batty for it. *B

ETA: giveaway is closed and the winner is picked :)

more decor

2010-10-08T09:17:00.000-07:00

Wall-art/wannabe-vinyl from this store
Plates are from the dollar store, with vinyl cut by these two
Pumpkin man and feather wreath from the spoiler (aka. mom)
Spooky books: Poe collection, The Graveyard Book, and Dracula. I highly recommend all of them.

And the cross-stitch is done by moi. I finished it the day after Halloween last year. I almost couldn't find it and I was in the process of throwing a fit about it when I finally found it. I realize cross-stitch isn't for everybody. It is kinda reminiscent of stencils-stamped-on-the-walls days... But, I adore needlework of all kind (one of my preferred hobbies). Anyway, the purple netting is recycled/reused from a bouquet of flowers my dear hub brought me over a month ago. And the little ghosties floating in it are from a festive light necklace that went dead. Cheers for puns and being resourceful ;)

Can anyone guess what's on the compuTV? I'll give you a BIG hint: it's one of my all-time favorite movies, regardless the season. My brothers think I'm kinda morbidly obsessed with the macabre... Maybe they're right. Halloween is, after all, my favorite holiday. *B

broadway review

2010-10-06T21:17:00.000-07:00

We went to our first school performance as parents' of a performer. There is something magical about watching your child on stage. I was close to tears the entire time. Happy tears, of course. I was just so proud to see him up there, strutting his stuff and singing his heart out. Might I add that my dear boy can carry a tune like no other little five year old boy with blond, spiky hair can ;) And you should have seen his little sister! She was his biggest fan, crying when he left the stage, and then beaming when he returned. So cute.

I was also proud of all the other performers, young and "old" (grades K-12). I couldn't stop myself from smiling and applauding. I just kept thinking of how their parents' must feel, and how our Father in Heaven must feel... These children are such a gift, especially when sharing their talents with others. Such a sweet experience. And I can't wait until the next one! *B

sweet & spooky

2010-10-04T16:19:00.000-07:00

It's October y'all! Woot woots for everyone :) I hope you don't mind, but most posts from now until November 1st will probably be Halloween-related. And if you do mind, well then I'm sorry. But not really, because this is my blog. Seriously though, who hates Halloween? The crazies, that's who. And vampires...

My halls are decked and properly spookified! Our wee little home is pretty tricked-out. Want to see? Good, because I'm going to show you! Today's post features my little entryway table/desk/thing. It's in desperate need of a makeover (just waiting for the heat to pass)... but at least the stuff sitting on it is cute! At least, I think so. The super cool stuff like the tree, plaque (and spidered mirror) are all courtesy of my mom. Story of my life. Not complaining! Pretty sure it's all from Orange Patch, too. Love that place. But notice the candy corn garland (take that Lolly Jane!), and my vintage Halloween blocks. Maybe you're unimpressed. Which is sad, because I'm thrilled with how they both turned out! If you do like them, then let's be friends. Oh, and I'll share my secrets with you, too. Because decorating is fun. Halloween decorating is funner. And Halloween decorating on a budget is funnest!

The garland is pretty straight-forward. Sorry, I don't have any fun step-by-step photos... But I'm confident you can figure it out! You'll need black embroidery floss, candy corn, and a hot glue gun (including the glue). FYI, I tried threading the candy corn. The first two threaded just fine, and then I proceeded to break ten in a row and decide the hot glue gun route is best. Put a little glue on the candy corn tip, attach floss to candy (not the other way around). Space candy corn every 2 inches. After you've got 6 glued and attached to the floss, go back and add just a dot of glue on top of the now embedded thread. Repeat until you've reached desired length. I left about 6 inches of the floss un-candied at the ends, for attachment purposes. Let the glue cool completely before you move anything, and be careful to avoid tangles! I cannot emphasize that enough. Candy corn garland = fun. Tangled candy corn garland = nightmare.

These blocks are probably my favorite decoration in my entire house. I didn't have any appropriate scrapbook paper, so I went and grabbed some digi goodness. And because I love all things vintage, I scoured the internet and found sweet little Halloween images. Look at those precious pictures! Anyway, I just worked a little ModPodge/distressing magic, and voila. Oh, they make me so happy! I plan on doing the same thing for other holidays. Can you imagine the cuteness of Christmas? Valentine's day?! Goodness gracious. If, by chance, you'd like to make these same blocks, here they are. Just click and save as. Images are 2.5 x 2.5. The tops of the blocks are made with the Shabby Princess Halloween Sampler. I already had wood blocks and I just printed everything out on my home printer. Super cute and super free! My favorite.

So there you have it! I just HAD to share; everyone deserves to have a haunted house ;) Oh, and there's a giveaway on the Mess, too. Yes, it's more Halloween hullabaloo. And yes, I have more than the one wall/table decorated. Trust me, I have more. *B

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clean schmean

2010-10-01T10:27:00.000-07:00

We interrupt this month's cleaning schedule on behalf of dust and cobwebs, and declare this house a safe-haven for all (fake) creepy-crawlies. All in the name of Halloween! Piles of dirty clothes and dishes are scary, too... Right? *B

to all you wannabe spooks

2010-09-28T23:09:00.000-07:00

I'm so tired. Must.Sleep. But, I have something very important to say: Halloween is MY favorite holiday. It always has been and always will be. So stop trying to copy me Internet! Only Martha understands me... *B

his take on school pictures

2010-09-22T12:14:00.000-07:00

(not a school photo)

Me: "Ok, so no funny faces. You need to smile nice, and be handsome."
Will: "I'm already handsome, mom."

True that! *B

awesome with a capital "a"

2010-09-22T00:33:00.000-07:00

Yes, I am well aware of the time. Yes, I am exhausted. Yes, I was unaware that tomorrow is school picture day. Yes, I am doing a last minute load of laundry. So without further ado, for your linking pleasure, a list of things that will change your life!

this song (that guitar!)
this show (those pies!)
this book (it's true!)
this bread (so good!)
this class (so sore!)
this cleaning product (amazing!)
this tutorial (fantastic!)
this fabric (I want!)
this necklace (I need!)

And now the laundry is in the dryer, and this mama is in bed! *B

sew cool

2010-09-16T20:26:00.000-07:00

He's ALL boy, all right! His outfit alone is proof of that... Star Wars + Legos + Halloween = Win x 3. While he enjoys a good light-saber duel, he also seeks out "girly" past-times during his down-time. He calls it his yarn work. His next needle project? A spider. Pretty ~~cute~~ tough stuff for a non-matching, pajama-wearing (sick) boy. Yay for manual dexterity that doesn't involve fists! *B

ramblings of an imperfectionist

2010-09-12T23:14:00.000-07:00

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We all know how crazy I am about playing house... for the past week I've been thinking about one of my favorite homes: the Openshaw home. It's a darling house, thanks to my Aunt Kristen ;) But beyond its cuteness is a feeling there that I can't quite explain. Honestly, I struggle to come up with a single word to describe the atmosphere found in my cousins' childhood home. Comfort. Peace. Welcome. Today in church, I heard something that struck so near and dear to my heart. Something I'm sure I've heard several times over. But for whatever reason, I listened with both my ears and heart today. "Only the home can compare with the temple in sacredness." And I realize the word I'm searching for is sacred.

Later in church we talked about the importance of the family unit, and this month's Visiting Teaching message is about nurturing the rising generation. And it hits me again, that I want my home to "emanate the spirit of family." For it is family that is central to God's plan of happiness. Family is sacred. I've recently come across Cultivating Home, a beautiful and inspirational blog. I could read it for hours! While I am indeed jealous of her farmhouse, I'm even more envious of the relationship she has with her children, and with God. It reminds me to get on my knees and plead for guidance on how to strengthen my family and home...

If I had to pick between my ultimate dream home (see here) versus staying forever in my little two-bedroom townhouse that emanates the sacred spirit of family, I would choose the latter. *B

going halfsies

2010-09-10T20:35:00.000-07:00

Does anyone else have issues with finishing projects? I'm real good at half finishing... in fact, the only thing I've finished from beginning to end is pregnancy. Oh, and this quilt and pillow. Both of which I'm super proud of. Especially that bolster pillow! But, because both are part of Elsie's unfinished bedding AND therefore a part of the unfinished kids' room, I still feel unfinished and consequently unsatisfied. Remember that to-do-list of mine? The mile long one? Yeah, that one. I haven't even scratched the surface of it. For crying out loud, I've had half of my walls half-painted for the past half-year!

There are just too many things I want to do (ie. decorate for Halloween!!!), and there are too many things I should be doing (ie. painting). Unfortunately, watching this show and browsing this blog is not a part of my plan o' projects. Pity. *B

like a lobster, huge and red!

2010-09-03T21:54:00.000-07:00

Spending the night sewing up a storm whilst listening to my most favoritest holiday CD ever. I guess this means Summer is (mostly) over for the Summers! *B

miss priss

2010-09-01T15:05:00.000-07:00

Sometimes she's too cute for her own good... and seriously, who taught her to be such a girly girl?! I blame my mother. She always wanted one. *B

not-so-lazy days

2010-08-23T21:57:00.000-07:00

These past two weeks have been anything but lazy! Meaning, these past two weeks have been insanely busy. And this week is no walk in the park either. But, I ~~think~~ hope life will start to slow down soon. Because Fall is coming. Can you feel it??? Not only am I excited for cooler weather, but I'm also excited for the peaceful pace Autumn will bring. [sigh]

The only lazy thing lazying about these days is me. In that I'm too lazy to take real photos, let alone edit the crappy ones I do take. Remember when I use to digi scrap?! Pfft, that was soooo long ago. Now all you get are fast iPhone photos. [cheers]

Anyway, so it's been crazy here. School is in full swing. We've had our first incident at school.. that I'd rather not dwell on... moving on! We've celebrated three significant birthdays within five days of each other. Monk turned FIVE, the hub turned THIRTY, and my baby brother turned 19 and is now an ELDER! [sniff, sniff]

Yeah, I'm definitely ready for the slower season. *B

update on the educate

2010-08-18T10:56:00.000-07:00

We have survived our first week of school! We also celebrated a busy boy turning five. I feel old. *B

body flow

2010-08-09T13:06:00.000-07:00

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I just got back from the gym where they teach this yoga/pilates/tai chi class. Pure awesomeness! My muscles felt worked, yet relaxed. I felt like one with my body and with the universe! Amazing. In love.

Also, I mastered the brownie muffin :) It's nutritious and delicious!!! Managed to process 2 (out of 43) loads of laundry, too. Lots of goodness today. Perfect start to what's sure to be a great week. And they say Mondays are bad? Pffft. Not this Monday!

Oh wait, I have to be at work in 24 minutes. To the shower! *B

swoon fest

2010-08-08T22:59:00.000-07:00

This won't mean much to anyone else but lil ol' me. But in case you are ~~crazy~~ interested, the following is a LONG list (in no particular order) of schtuff that makes my heart go pitter-pat. Who knows, we might have similar tastes...

Arizona sunsets
Cath Kidston
Waverly
floral prints
gingham
red barns
red anything
antique boutiques
plates on the wall
beadboard (duh)
polka dots, the red/white variety (double duh)
black & white photos of hands/feet (long before it was dubbed cool -- take that fadistics!)
wire baskets
bird houses
bird cages
rustic wreaths
blue & white china
wood floors
quilts
hexagon afghans
vintage caravans
retro and/or vintage ads & pin-ups
British telephone booths
book stacks
mason jars
tulle
toile
embroidery
typewriters
The Black Apple
Anthropologie
gumball machines (vintage, duh again)
retro gas pumps
distressed edges
peeling paint
milk bottles
lanterns
cake stands
Moda
Pottery Barn
crystal knobs
copper pots, pans, colanders (anything really)
craftsman homes
cottages & bungalows
Victorian houses
brick houses
red doors
wrap around porches
white picket fences
climbing ivy
gardens of any kind
rolling hills & valleys
the following children books (turned into television shows): Little Bear and Angelina Ballerina. So sweet! J'adore much.

Basically, I'm a retro/vintage, shabby chic, French country, beach cottage fanatic! I'm also a grown woman who likes to read children books and watch cartoons before bedtime... And when it is time for me to sleep, I lay there dreaming about the things that make me smile. I may even breath a wishful sigh, before sweet sleep sweeps me off my feet. Also, I enjoy alliterating from time to time. *B

not ready yet

2010-08-06T07:54:00.000-07:00

How does one prepare one's offspring for school? And when I say "one" I mean me... and by offspring I mean Will, an intense (almost) five year old boy, who ~~likes~~ needs to stay busy and keep his hands active. He is a good, sweet boy. And he sure is smart! But, I was THIS close to not putting him in school at all. I mean, he's a five year old boy (which says it all). But then I remembered the charter school across the street: smaller class sizes + emphasis on performing arts = potential. I'd been praying about what to do, about what was best for him. I was THIS close to keeping him home. He's had a difficult time in Primary, how can he handle school?! Let's be honest, he's had a difficult time even being at home...

I felt prompted and comforted about this school. I signed him up. Maybe it'll work? Maybe he'll be ok? Last night was orientation. We met his teacher and got a feel for his room. Only 12 students. I think he'll like it here? I think he'll like his teacher? Talked with her about our concerns. She says, "when in doubt, keep them out."

What to do?! Got the uniforms back from the embroiderer, just waiting to be washed and worn. Got a backpack. An orange one ;) Got some school supplies. Need to get the rest. What do I make for lunch? How should I fix his hair? Can he handle being gone for seven hours? What will his sister think/do with him gone all day? What am I going to do while he's gone? Is he going to sit and listen? Will he play nice? What if he gets hungry/tired/hurt? Will he cry? Will he miss home? Will he miss me?

School starts next week. Is he really ready? Because I'm not. *B

change of plans

2010-08-04T22:09:00.000-07:00

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Turns out I no longer have a school to study for... so, goal number six will get a little makeover. Also, I think I'm going to start counting my points next week. But, so far these past few days are turning out to be good practice. So, who's with me??? Seriously, I would LOVE to set up a group or something. Any ideas on how it should run, if/when we should meet, etc.? Feedback would be greatly appreciated :)

Also, I'm really enjoying reacquainting myself with my blog here, and over there. And I've come to realize that making and keeping meal plans shouldn't just be a short-term personal goal; it definitely deserves a long-term goal status! So if you're into meal plans, healthy tips/tricks and yummy recipes, then by all means, head on over! ~~And then click follow, so I can feel cool.~~ I want to share the knowledge I've gained with as many people as possible. Who doesn't want to feel better about themselves, inside AND out?! Yay for good food! And yay for setting goals! ~~Boo for schools that close without a warning and leave a wannabe nutrition consultant in the dust.~~ *B

betterment

2010-08-03T10:03:00.000-07:00

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Uh, wow. Who knew posting so many (cute) pictures of your kids/family would make you so popular? ;) I'll have to do that more often... Anyway, so I've been thinking about goal setting for a while now. I even thought, "wouldn't it be cool if there were some sort of point system?" Lo and behold, my newfound friend posted about a challenge she's participating in. Yesss! And I am completely unashamed in admitting that I am totally copying her idea, with some slight modifications. Basically, there are four areas where I personally want to see some growth: physical, mental, emotional and spiritual. There are ten points possible in a day, and each area gets at least one dedicated point. There's also the option of 10 free points to use throughout the week, or a free day. Also, each week the Personal Goal changes. Here's what I've come up with:

64 oz. of water
30-45 minutes of physical activity
one blog post (on either site)
no eating out
no refined sugar
1 hr. schoolwork (not necessarily consecutive)
15 min. of scripture reading (5 min w/ every meal)
get to bed before 11 pm
Express sincere appreciation, love or praise to my children
Personal Goal: make and keep meal plan

So yeah, I'm excited :) I love setting goals, making plans, creating lists, etc. I'm just not the best at follow-through... anybody interested in joining me? I need to be held accountable to someone other than myself. And there could be prizes! Maybe? So far I'm blackmailing my mother and husband into accepting the challenge. Next week's potential Personal Goal: accepting the free will of others. *B

picture perfect

2010-07-31T14:10:00.000-07:00

"And it will surprise you what the Lord has done!" Amen. *B

quick trip

2010-07-26T09:25:00.000-07:00

Been hanging out in Prescott with the Nelsons. Having a blast and a half. Wishing we could stay, permanently... back to work tomorrow [sigh]. Please ignore my butt, and focus on the amazing scenery. *B

weathering the weather

2010-07-24T11:04:00.000-07:00

Monsoons = Awesome! Humidity = Gross! I agree, it's a conundrum... While I appreciate the recent "cooler" temps, and the temporary grey sky (and rain!) I do not enjoy the increase in humidity. I find stickiness rather unappealing. I'll take dry heat any day over wet heat, thank you very much. I could never make it in Texas/Florida. But I can handle California... Hawaii? I'd like to take my chances. *B

look, no beadboard!

2010-07-21T08:17:00.000-07:00

my kids are cute
my floors are gross
we love SpongeBob
we hate our floors
we love/hate paint

Brought to you by the fantabulously fabtastic iPhone. Yes, it has changed our lives. Yes, I realize how cliche that sounds. And yes, oftentimes we wear pajamas all day, every day. *B

sleep sweet suite

2010-07-19T21:55:00.000-07:00

WARNING: I'm off in dreamland again. So read to your own boredom...

Every room, nook and cranny in our little wannabe cottage has a visionary counterpart, dreamed up by me. Sometimes the hub shares my vision, and sometimes he questions it. He's a good man :) Slowly, VERY slowly, these spaces have started to take shape and for the most part, I'm pleased with the results! Homemaking is definitely something I enjoy. It comes in third. First being my family (duh) and the gospel - they're related, so they count as one! Second is nutrition. The holistic kind. And third makes homey stuff. Which unfortunately includes crafting ;) So anyway, I have had a plan for just about everywhere BUT the master bedroom. It's been driving me crazy that I couldn't even dream up something. Is that weird? That's ok, I accept the fact that I'm weirdly obsessed with playing house. So anyway, about three days ago I had a revelation and I am so relieved! It will be a lonnnnnnnnnng time until many, if not most, of my plans go into effect, but it feels good to have a game plan:

BEDDING:

-White (sure to be homemade) bedding! Duvet cover kinda like this, but more like the one in the Lemonade Mermaid room (p. 72) schemed up by Layla of Lettered Cottage [drool much]. And then three large, white pillows done up like this in lieu of shams. All topped off with this quilt when it's finished, coupled with a few non-white pillows. You know, just to shake things up a bit. Oh, and I may add some fancy schmancy crochet edging to the (white) bedskirt.

WINDOW:

-due to the layout of the room, our bed is in front of the balcony screen door. If I were rich, I'd put in some classy glass French doors like these. But for now, I plan on thrifting some old shutters and fixing 'em up nice. And then distressing them. And then hanging them in front of the patio door, kinda like a faux headboard... and then I'll hang our billowing curtains over and around them, if that makes sense. Oh yes, they will billow.

WALLS:

-So I love beadboard. I mean, I LOVE it! Yup, it's going up in my bedroom. But... I'm painting it green. Not like Christmas green. Or poop/puke green. But a calm, fresh and dreamy green. And then the rest of the walls will be white. And on our largest wall, above our desk, I'm thinking of having a letter wall. Featuring none other than the letter {B}, for me and my man :)

Ok, so you can see it??? I'm crazy. I know. Who cares?! I do!!! So there's my plan. A beautiful all-white room with just a pop of color here and there to remind you that you're still alive. I'm so excited! I'll be sure to show pictures so you can see what I see. Yeah, I'll get right on that. See you in a year (or two)! Hopefully our beadboard-ed half-wall will be done by then, too. Along with the beadboard-ed kitchen. And bathrooms. And ceilings... *B

chez moi: dare to dream

2010-07-12T22:31:00.000-07:00

For as long as I can remember, I have dreamed about my dream home. I don't know why it's so important to me, but it is. So important that "my home" is even mentioned in my patriarchal blessing. I'm embarrassed to say that while growing up I dreamed more about my future home than my future family... I would fantasize about discovering an abandoned cottage and how I would merrily make it my own. Much like this girl (a favorite book of mine). Or how I might find shelter in a safe haven of my own making, much like Miss Honey in Matilda. Not much has changed since then, other than my age ;) The dreams are the same.

I've continued my searching and dreaming, only I find it in more grown-up venues, such as Thomas Kinkade's artwork. Oh, to have my own cobblestone cottage, nestled behind numerous wildflowers, perched along a babbling brook! Just recently I stumbled upon this planned village, comprised of these fabulous plans. I want one, I want one, I WANT ONE!!! I would like both "The Tuly Charming Collection" and "The Truly Tiny Collection" ASAP (aka. birthday/Christmas), just so I can further my obsession. And Brad has loosely promised that we can build this when we retire. Isn't he just so good to me to put up with my silly notions? Yes, he most certainly is.

But in the meantime, here I sit in my "new" home. It's far from anything I've dreamed of, but it is a blank canvas and it can become something I dream up! I will now lovingly refer to this place as my cottage in training. I may live in the desert, far from real trees, or flowing water... but it's my little refuge from the world. It's where I, and my family (and friends), can hopefully find peace and comfort. And in my book, that is a dream worth dreaming. *B

"O thou afflicted, tossed with tempest, and not comforted! Behold, I will lay thy stones with fair colors, and lay thy foundations with sapphires. And I will make thy windows of agates, and thy gates of carbuncles, and all thy borders of pleasant stones. And all thy children shall be taught of the Lord; and great shall be the peace of thy children. In righteousness shalt thou be established; thou shalt be far from oppression for thou shalt not fear, and from terror for it shall not come near thee."

-- 3 Nephi 22:11-14

follow, follow me

2010-07-11T22:13:00.000-07:00

Now that I've reentered the blogging world, [cough] after a 3 month hiatus [cough, cough], I have questions: How does one follow a blog? What program, if any, do you use? How do you keep up with all those dang blogs out there?! And most importantly, how do you keep from wasting all your time ~~drooling over~~ reading blogs like this??? Maybe it's just me, but it seems like home improvement and craft (and clothing) tutorials are all the rage right now. So darn and dangerously appealing.

I feel like I'm back in high-school, desperately wanting to fit in with the cool kids. But then I remember that I gave that up and went off to college early instead ;) The other night Brad and I went out with one of the coolest couples EVER, and us girls chatted about the blogging world. Where so-and-so lives, what they're doing, etc. I love how friends can keep in touch and get to know each other better via blogging. And I love how you can make friends through blogging...

But how do you keep it from controlling your life? Sometimes I'll hop off the computer completely inspired and excited to tackle projects. But then other times I limp away from it, down in the dumps because I could never be as cool as "her" OR my house will never look like "that"... On one hand, all the blog surfing/stalking turns into hours of motivational wow sessions, while on the flip side it leaves you feeling dejected and worthless. So how do you keep it from controlling your life?

At the end of the day, I blog for me. For my friends. And for my family. Just like any internet outlet, I believe blogging can be a definite positive; a force for good. But if we're not careful, it can become a negative influence in our lives. When it comes down to it, I want to live in the moment and not compare my moments with others'. I want to enjoy the making of MY memories. And I want to enjoy sharing them. It can be done right, right? *B

questions of the rhetorical kind

2010-07-09T10:13:00.000-07:00

Have you ever found that all of a sudden your house reeks to high heaven, only to discover that something has died and gone to Hades in the fridge AND pantry?
Do you find that some of your best ideas turn out to be your worst ideas?
Or that some of your bad ideas turn out to be halfway decent?
Do you have a collection of unfinished projects?
Do you consistently lie in bed until your second born is awake, leaving your firstborn to fend for himself in the meantime?
Have you ever procrastinated your laundry until it's taken over every nook and cranny in your house?
Do you have rings around the toilets, scummy showers and spotty mirrors?
Can you write your name on the floors in your kitchen, just by cleaning them?
Have you ever called your mom in an effort to prolong the morning?
Do you have the best of intentions of accomplishing much, only to find that by the end of the day you've done nothing much?
Do you have a literal/mental portfolio set up for your ultimate dream home? And do you spend hours browsing blogs, websites and magazines while adding to said portfolio?
Do you love perusing through Goodwill, Ross, garage sales and dollar stores?
Do you watch cartoons? And enjoy them?
Do you constantly neglect your appearance, without a care in the world?
Do you enjoy people watching?
How about window shopping?

I may or may not answer yes to all of the above. Can we still be friends? *B

the first of many homemaking posts

2010-07-05T12:31:00.000-07:00

I don't think I ever made it very clear that we did indeed lose the house and therefore bought a foreclosed town house (sounds more quaint than condo). We've been in it for a few months now, and I'm slowly making it into our own little town home ;) It's not very big and we don't know how long we'll be here... but we're happy to have a place to call our own. For being a foreclosure, it's in pretty good shape. BUT, there are a LOT of things I would like to improve and/or change. And because it's mine, I CAN and I WILL!

So far we've changed out a light fixture (or two, or three), swapped a faucet, painted a few walls, and even designed/installed a custom closet unit. I also spray painted my front "porch" light and "house" numbers black. They used to be brass... like this [shudder]. I wish I had before/after pictures, so that you can be as amazed and thrilled as I was with the relatively simple transformation. Oh, and we've also replaced several of our kitchen appliances. I now have a love/hate relationship with Craigslist.

Anyway, we have a TON more projects in store for us. And little by little, I hope to cross things off this massive list:

***THROUGHOUT***
-paneled doors
-new door hardware (knobs, hinges, etc.)
-beadboard WP ceilings (bedrooms)

***OUTSIDE***

FRONT:
-new door handle
-mat
-flowers
-welcome sign???

BACK:
-pavers
-paint storage unit
-new hose
-new grill cover
-drying rack
-new door knob

***DOWNSTAIRS***

FAMILY ROOM:
-wood floors
-refinish desk in white, new hardware
-PB quiet corner chair, red
-new EC knobs
-refinish bench in green
-white beadboard WP on halfwall
-remove countertop, replace with shelf
-clean floors, rug and chair
-refinish book case???

KITCHEN:
-tile floor
-beadboard cabinetry
-knobs for cabinets
-new countertop
-paint
-white beadboard WP in nook
-paint cabinets
-new fridge
-install "new" sink
-magnet board
-dry erase board
-curtains (window/door treatment)
-key ring
-plate montage
-refinish highchair
-laminated chair cushions
-refinish table???
-possible shelves in nook???

LAUNDRY ROOM
-install hooks

***UPSTAIRS***

HALL:
-wall quilt
-matching "S" letter board
-matching framed crochet squares

BATHROOM:
-framed redwork
-hang cat print
-white peg board trim (yellow on bottom, white on top)
-ruffle shower curtain???
-matching towels
-tile flooring

KIDS:
-paint window wall blue
-paint opposite wall white, with blue square
-polka dot curtains
-bunting
-floor throw pillows
-crib pillows
-dresser knobs
-finish toddler bed

MASTER:
-new faucet
-new light fixture
-tile flooring
-hang curtains
-paint closet shelves
-refinish desk/chair
-letter wall
-paint???

Today's project involves some beadboard. I'm beyond giddy! So I'll be sure to take before/after pictures this time. And I hope you don't mind, but I have a plethora of home project posts in store. Hopefully in the near future. Anyone else as excited as I am?! I doubt it. *B

land of the noble free

2010-07-04T22:32:00.000-07:00

I can't sing "America" without tearing up. Such powerful words! It moves me. Same goes for "The Star-Bangled Banner." Such rousing music! Gives me the chills. I love my country, but I do wish I appreciated it more... There are people who are willing to die, just so they can live here. I was born here, made possible by the many brave who fought and sacrificed much, including their lives. For you. For me. For us. Americans unite! And give thanks.

I'd also like to thank the Chinese for inventing the pure awesomeness that is fireworks. *B

a {short} story

2010-07-01T22:30:00.000-07:00

There once lived a girl who, much to her husband's dismay, quite liked having short hair. She also enjoyed sporting thick, side-swept bangs. The girl and her coif (and her sweet, accepting husband) lived happily ever after... The end. *B

mini quilt group

2010-06-29T22:36:00.000-07:00

Once a week (sometimes more) I head on over to the parentals' for a little sewing action. Mom is the appointed president and I am the dutiful vice president. Sometimes Elsie comes in and offers her opinion, which is full of complimentary squeals, coupled with "helpful" fabric rearrangements. All done with my current work in progress under her feet, on the floor. And then there's Will, who comes in every five minutes asking if he can help. And sometimes I let him. He's getting to be quite the pedal pusher ;)

It's something I look forward to every week. We plan, cut, press, arrange, pin and press again. Always quick and ready to offer praises, suggestions, and thread. We laugh, we talk, we complain and we dream. It's the best quilt group I've ever been to and I'm proud to be an active member! *B

not so little anymore

2010-06-28T22:18:00.000-07:00

After perusing through my blog yesterday, I realized that Elsie has grown up quite a bit since she was last featured. So thanks to some photos a la iPhone, here's my prissy missy in action:

She has hair now! And dare I say it, she gets cuter by the day. Which is extremely dangerous, because she also gets her way more often than not. She's a serious ham and a serious tease. And she is a very busy bee with her very own personality to rival that of her brother's. She's in love with animals, babies, jewelry, music, chocolate, olives and scrambled egg yolks. She can cry crocodile tears on cue and has a temper bigger than her britches! She is SUCH a girl, which is definitely new territory for me. If I hadn't delivered her myself, I'd wonder who her mother was ;)

And while it appears that I have a "big" toddler on my hands, she's still my pretty little baby. And she always will be. *B

pigs really do fly!

2010-06-27T22:59:00.000-07:00

Do you ever read your own blog? Are you embarrassed to find that it's awkward and whiny? Or are you pleasantly pleased with your wit and personal awesomeness? If you came across your blog via blog-hopping, would you like what you see? Is it weird that I just spent about an hour re-reading my blog and inspired myself to start blogging again??? So, where to start? Let's pretend like it hasn't been three months. Like I'm not a stranger in my own little world I've created here; a place where my own mother still comes to visit... Yeah, that sounds good!

You know what else is good? Life. Life is good. It's hard, but oh so good. I've grown a lot and I'm happy nowadays :) It's refreshing. I still work for my dad, but Brad also has a job. Money is tight, but I've come to realize that it always will be. And that it can be a blessing, not a curse. I'm enjoying my kids, and my home. I'm enjoying my role in our family, finding joy in my talents, and discovering my calling in life. Right now I'm appreciative of the challenges we've faced. That I've faced. And as crazy as it may sound, I'm looking forward to the challenges we'll have. That I'll have. Because God loves me, and He knows me. And every now and then, when I catch a quick glimpse of the person He sees, I find peace and happiness and I like what I see.

Let's be friends again Blog. I've missed you. It's time to rediscover each other. Are you as excited and hopeful as I am? I hope so. *B

someday

2010-03-24T12:31:00.000-07:00

I would really like to get back to recording, crafting, schooling, and most importantly, mothering... I miss it all. But alas! time and energy (and money) is of the essence. Of which I have none. So today I will throw myself a pity party. And hope someday comes sooner than later. *B

a busy b is me

2010-01-04T21:03:00.000-08:00

I'm alive and kicking. Kung Fu style ;) I have no idea if anyone reads this anymore, but I just felt so bad for having gone an entire month without posting! And I have no idea if/when normal posting will resume... but I think I have a rather legitimate excuse (besides the Holidays): I started working. As in, wake up before 8:00 AM, get ready (shower + makeup + hair, aka. no pajamas) and leave my babies for 4-8 hours :( But really, it's all good. And I consider myself very lucky and blessed to have been offered a good job. My boss is a pretty nice guy. I've known him my whole life! I mean, he made me... ok, so I work for my dad. But it's a real job that pays real money, which we desperately need! So while Brad studies for the AZ bar, and until he either gets more hours or finds a killer part-time job, I'm a working mom. *B

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like mother, like daughter

2009-12-04T22:17:00.000-08:00

Last night was a long one. Which automatically makes for a long day... but today, instead of going back to bed, I got to go to the Christmas Idea House with my dear mother. Even though we missed the first bus, ate runny (albeit tasty) quiche for breakfast, and browsed through a crowded house full of not-as-fancy-as-to-be-expected decor, we had fun. We always have fun together. And we came home exhausted.

Why do I feel like I've been up since before dawn?! Oh, that's right... because I have been! Elsie's hardly slept in the past 24 hours, poor thing. She was acting kind of fussy last night, and it steadily got worse. Only her brother could distract her from her ear tugging and restlessness. Poor baby. But man, does she LOVE her big brother! And sibling bath time. So cute :) Anyway, after much rocking, singing, and other such useless attempts at distracting, we called for backup: a Priesthood blessing. Thank Heaven for good friends who answer desperate late night phone calls! Little miss got her blessing and was able to fall asleep in her mother's arms. Cuddling a ball of yarn.

I love my mom. I love my daughter. And I love that I'm both. *B

tonight's forecast: star weaving

2009-12-02T21:28:00.000-08:00

it may be sunny outside

2009-12-01T18:21:00.000-08:00

But there's a hint of a chill :)
There's not much better than crafting up a Christmas storm! And I haven't even started on the homemade gifts... I better get crack-a-lackin'. But for now, I'm seeing stars! *B

truly random

2009-11-30T09:32:00.000-08:00

*If it's true, this is my 365th post. That's a year's worth of posts over three years...
*Had a rough week this past week... even though it was the week of thanks, I had a difficult time focusing on what we have and unfortunately focused more on things we don't have. Like a job. Or a house. Or just our own place with our own furniture would be nice. Passing the CA Bar would have been even nicer...
*I've been throwing myself into crafting. It's a happy distraction, at times. I really want to make these. And I'd really like to get my Christmas quilts quilted. I didn't quite finish my Thanksgiving cross-stitch, but maybe, just maybe, I'll finish my Christmas stitchery on time ;) I'm also dreaming up a Christmas granny square pillow, made out of some beautiful brick colored Alpaca wool I got for my birthday (thanks Mom!).
*After hours of agonizing and comparing apartments, we've decided that maybe buying a condo/townhouse might be a smart investment... because a two bedroom townhouse is cheaper than a two bedroom apartment. True story. So maybe we'll live in a condo for a year or two, get our life back in order, and then rent it out when we eventually move up in the world. We'll see. We did place a bid on a rather nice townhouse close by. We'll see. It's funny though, because I swore I would NEVER buy a condo. Never. And now we just might. I'm trying not to think about it, because it makes me mad that I'm not moving into a (4 bedroom) house. I'm also trying not to think about it because the thoughts of having our own place again (even if just a condo) just seems too good to be true, and I'm tired of having my heart broken...
*I need to cut my boys' hair. Wishing my little girl's hair would grow a bit more... especially since every now and then I catch a glimpse of strawberry blond curls.
*I wish I could be happy for others and their miracles, but more often than not I'm left feeling bitter. I hate that.
*I'm tired of crying. Lots of weeping, wailing and gnashing of teeth going on over here. I hate it.
*I love Bing Crosby. And Ella Fitzgerald. And Frank Sinatra. And Christmas music. I love Pandora! I also love Hulu and Netflix. They've saved us from Cable withdrawals.
*Am I really the only one who thought that sending a M.A.L.P. through the Narnia wardrobe was hilarious?! That's embarassing, haha.
*Saw New Moon (with my baby brother and my clueless father) and liked it. It was definitely better than Twilight. But it was still lame... because let's face it, the books themselves are lame. Reading cheesy fantastical romances is hugely different than watching it. That being said, how inappropriately hot was Jacob?! Wow. If I weren't such a vampire fan - a love and obsession long before the Twilight saga - I'd be team Jacob. If I were Bella, I would have ditched Edward a long time ago... the only thing he has going for him are his looks, and being a vampire. In my book, the latter characteristic is key. Like I said, I'm a sucker for vampires! But if anyone were to sway me from my weird devotion, it would be that wolf boy ;) Maybe I'm team Volturi... Italian vampires? Yes please.
*Little Miss is crawling!!!
*As much as I love nursing, I've been going back and forth on whether or not I should continue with it or give up. You see, I'm really worried about my health. Physically and mentally. And I can't really do what I need to do to help my health without it affecting my milk supply. But then again, I feel like nursing is the one thing I've triumphed over this year...
*I love going to the temple. I wish I could go every day and all day. I am constantly craving the peace and strength that comes from visiting often.
*Anyone interested in an online quilt group? We could share projects, organize block exchanges, talk stash, sew on and sew forth ;) It could be fun! Please tell me you'll think about it.
*Really wanting to relearn how to knit, applique, and embroider. I'd also like to try my hand at rug-making... there I go, preemptively throwing myself into crafts again!
*Since the past few Octobers haven't been the best, I might have to change my favorite holiday from Halloween to Christmas. Red and green are my two favorite colors, after all ;)
*If I could choose one word to wear around my neck or to hang on my walls, it would be BELIEVE. I love that word. It's filled with hope and magic.

How's that for random??? *B

funny is as funny does

2009-11-20T17:27:00.000-08:00

I thought I'd use Fridays to post about things that brighten my day(s). And as this particular Friday happens to be a somewhat stressful/sad day, this sure did bring a smile to my face :)

What has you smiling? Anyone have a funny story/joke to share? Because I'd love to hear 'em! *B

kinda blurry

2009-11-11T17:27:00.001-08:00

published in 1968

2009-11-05T19:29:00.001-08:00

I scored this little gem at our local Goodwill. It caught my eye... I quickly glanced around the room and then quickly grabbed it for my own! It will go absolutely PERFECT in Elsie's room (when she has one). See, it even matches her bedding ;)

It's full of sweet little pictures, songs, stories (with morals!), etc. I love it oh so much and it makes me so very happy. *B

a day in the life of

2009-11-04T19:47:00.000-08:00

crafting at night

2009-11-03T21:06:00.000-08:00

Bad lighting, but boy do I love me some cross-stitch! Hopefully I'll finish it before Thanksgiving... my track record isn't too great, seeing as I just finished my Halloween needlework yesterday. True story. Don't judge. *B

almost famous

2009-11-02T08:24:00.000-08:00

A couple of days ago Brad came across this article. Naturally, he thought it might interest me ;) So, I dutifully passed on the information to the Lex. As in the Twilight Lexicon. And then, they mentioned me! Yeah, when they say "TY to Beth for pointing it out" that's me! I'm Beth! And I am oh so cool now.

So I started thinking about all of my encounters with the famous. The Black Apple mentioned, and linked, me on her blog once. That was pretty awesome. And Heather Bailey came and visited my little blog and even left a comment! That sure was exciting, too. And then there's all the people we chanced to meet while living in Malibu, CA: Pamela Anderson, Denise Richards, Jay Leno (driving one of his fancy cars), guy from Burn Notice, Fred from Buffy, Wesley Crusher (real nice guy) and Data from Star Trek, Dr. Klopeck from The 'Burbs, and of course, our personal favorite, Richard Dean Anderson, aka. Jack O'Neill from Stargate SG-1, also known as MacGyver. I feel like I'm missing someone... anyway, fun times in the Golden State!

And there you have it! My brief brushes with fame. Maybe someday I'll meet Stephenie Meyer. She lives here, you know. *B

faith in all things

2009-11-01T21:50:00.000-08:00

Today in Relief Society the lesson was on faith. Go figure ;) Anyway, the lesson was great in and of itself, but the comments shared were equally enlightening. As some women briefly shared their struggles, I stopped and counted how many serious life-changes I've had to deal with this past year. I came up with at least seven. But, it is good to know that I'm not alone. Not that I would ever wish any of my hardships on another, or hope that someone else has a rough time with life. However, it is nice to know that I'm not the only one struggling.

We talked about the destructive path of doubt, the antithesis of faith and hope. And how miracles do not promote faith, but they come as answers to faith. I realized that we all feel the same during our hardships, too. We all feel that "why me?" at some point(s) in our lifetime. For me, it's "but it was such a good plan," and I've had to stop myself and remember that it's not about my plan, it's about God's plan.

A couple of weeks ago I was reading a chapter from President Eyring's "To Draw Closer to God". The chapter is titled "Trials of Faith" and in it he promises that 1) there will be trials of your faith; 2) there will be opportunities to serve others, and; 3) we will see God again. As I sat in church today, with tears running down my face (and no tissues!), I remembered his words: "Please find out what it is the Lord would have you do, believe he has prepared a way for you to do it, and share what he's given you with others. As you do that, you will feel his love and you will become more like him. You will find joy and consolation, you will become sanctified by the gospel, and then you can go home again."

I must admit, I am feeling better about things. Not because things are easier. They're not. We lost the house, we're still looking for extra work, and Elsie insists on waking up at least three times a night... but our Savior has suffered more, and He has lifted the weight of my burdens from my shoulders. They're still there, and I don't know how long I have to endure them. But I do believe I've been given the strength to carry them. I am exercising my faith. *B

more blogging

2009-11-01T20:59:00.000-08:00

Is it just me or does it seem like all of Blogland is slowing down? I mean, unless you're a somebody, hardly anyone visits (let alone comments) on your blog. Now don't get me wrong, I am NOT complaining about this latest trend. It's just that I've heard a lot (and felt the same) about feeling pressured to be popular or go private.

I didn't start blogging just because everyone else was doing it. I started it for me. I've talked about it in the past, but I really do want this blog to be mine. To be a journal of sorts. But a journal worth sharing. I want it to mean something to me, my family, and my friends. Some of those friends are real-life best friends. But more often than not, those friends are acquaintances reconnected or friends that I've met through various online communities. The start of these friendships does not matter so much as the relationship... and I am always up for making, and keeping, friends!

Anyway, I started wondering why I read the blogs I do. And I started thinking of blogs I admire. There's Clarissa for her consistency, Camille for her creativity, NieNie for her strength, Heather for her tenacity... and the list goes on. And I realized that I want to be that kind of a blogger. For me. And for you (the reader). Not because I want to be the next big thing, or because there's an assumed responsibility, but because I want to be better. I want to write down my thoughts, hopes and dreams, to reveal my struggles and celebrate my triumphs, to share my crafts/projects, to show off my cute kids, etc. I want to post it all and I know at least someone out there wants to read some of it.

So, I have an idea. Really, it's my game plan... I have a nifty little trick that helps me plan meals day after day and I'm going to try and apply the same concept to my blogging. And that, my friends, is the secret of themes. Call me lame, or just plain silly, but I think it just might work! I'm going to at least try it and we'll see what happens ;) For now, I'm thinking of having Random Mondays, Creative Tuesdays, Wordless Wednesdays, Thrifted Thursdays, Funny Fridays, and Sacred Sundays. Maybe I'll throw in a Sharing Saturday, haha. Basically, there may or may not be a brand new post every day... it will just depend.

I want to be a better blogger. I think it's good for me. It's what I need, for now. *B

love this day

2009-10-31T22:39:00.001-07:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!
The Summers Family

behind the Summers' smiles

2009-10-20T13:48:00.000-07:00

The Summers (oldest to youngest)

THE HUB
Goes by: Law-school grad, patent agent, breadwinner
Addictions: anything on the computer and watching movies with commentary
Color: green

ME
Goes by: B, Buffy, Bethers, Bethie-Poo
Addictions: anything to do with fabric, needle, thread, yarn and vampires
Color: red

THE BOY
Goes by: Monk, Bubba, Buddy, Willie
Addictions: board/video/computer games
Colors: orange and yellow
Food: scrambled eggs, cheese, bread, and juice
Song: Knights of Cydonia by Muse (seriously)

THE GIRL
Goes by: little miss, munchkin, Boo, Elsers
Addictions: mom, waving hi, clicking her tongue, and spitting
Colors: Blue, only because she looks so good in it (hello eyes)! Also pretty in pink...
Food: milk a la mom and pureed carrots
Song: Popcorn Popping on the Apricot Tree

I love my family! They make me happy. They make me smile. *B

my kids just might be the cutest things ever

2009-10-05T14:36:00.001-07:00

And I can say that because I'm not prejudiced.

Ok, maybe I am. But, just a little bit. *B

the house

2009-10-02T10:07:00.000-07:00

We still don't know if we'll get the chance to actually live in it, but for now we're still building... since the future isn't looking too promising and we don't know if we'll have the pleasure of calling it "our house" for much longer, we (aka. I) now refer to it simply as "the house." Yesterday we headed out to check on the progress of the house, and I must say, it's looking good!

I love the floorplan (I'm really picky when it comes to floorplans). I love the location. I love the lot. I love the cabinets, carpet, tile, and even the linoleum...

Yes, we're still trying to figure out a way to make "the house" our house for good. Wish us luck! But really, we're asking for a miracle. We'll just have to see what happens! *B

PS- HAPPY OCTOBER!!!

a whole lot of perfect(ion) going on

2009-09-19T21:19:00.000-07:00

Like many others, my heart is feeling a wee bit on the heavy side nowadays. It's amazing how one day everything seems to be clicking into place... we had the perfect job and in two months, we'd be moving into our perfect little dream house preparing for our first perfect Christmas in our first perfect home. And then the very next day, we find ourselves (in a now seemingly pointless one-bedroom apartment) with an unsteady future; our perfect job may not be so perfect and our perfect new home now looks more and more unlikely. I couldn't be sadder. I couldn't be lower. One day I was engulfed in the happy planning of my happy life. The next day I was engulfed in doubt, despair and discouragement.

And then I remember that that's life. And I'm not scared. When Brad was preparing for the CA Bar he worried... What if his studying wasn't enough? What if he didn't pass? The list of fears went on and on. But I assured him that as important as this test is, it does not define him. And so I remind myself, as I reminded him, of what does define us: our family and the gospel. What more do we need?

Last night, after I cried myself silly, I watched this (that Nie has uncanny timing). And today I read this, and this. I acknowledge the fact that life is hard. My life isn't perfect... But, my life is good. And I'm here to be perfected. God is perfect and God is good, also. And He's given me three reasons to smile:

And so I do. *B

pampered much

2009-08-22T14:02:00.000-07:00

That's what happens when it's your birthday! Whether you happen to be turning 29 or the big One-Eight, you're never too old (or too manly) for a pedicure ;)

I believe they enjoyed themselves... and while they left their calluses and cuticles behind, their manhood remains intact. *B

someone got older today

2009-08-17T08:37:00.000-07:00

My little boy is now a big boy. And he has one of the sweetest, and funniest, faces I know! Love him. Happy fourth Mr. Will! *B

seriously

2009-08-03T22:20:00.000-07:00

and finally!!! It's my turn to get my house :)

I wonder if it has any super incentives I'm unaware of... like an underground lair. That would be cool. Pictures and details to come! *B

the point of no return

2009-07-28T07:24:00.000-07:00

We're here. Me and the Missy and the man of the hour. Six hours, to be exact. For three days, to be more exact. Yes, the time has come for Brad to take the California Bar. If you're the praying type, please pray for him. And all other good vibes/energy/thoughts, etc. is needed and gladly accepted! *B

while the cat is away,

2009-07-11T13:42:00.000-07:00

the mice will play!

And this little mouse
lives in this pretty house
(for now)

And plays with fabric, yarn and strings,
and other such non-kitty things

And she has the best of playmates!
Yay for cousins, Nana, and this little face
(happy 4 months to my missy!)

All while Mr. Feline goes to his books,
with tired sighs and forlorn looks...
(only 2.5 weeks to go!)*B